Passions:
Music
Driving
Risks & Rebellion
Laughing
Water Ice & Water
Landscapes
Smell of Rain
Enlightenment
Worry

Aversions:
Conservatives
Boys That Think it is Funny to Run Over Animals
Lonliness
Sociology
FYE & Work
Wanting & Waiting
Bad Horror or Comedy Movies
School
Fear & Fakers
Intolerance

I definitely can say I had a much easier time contriving a list of things I do not care for than a list of things I am passionate about. It's scary for me to realize that I have no passion, no goals, and no chance for success. I try hard at things I'm supposed to do, things I've been told to accomplish, but when the directions stop coming and I'm on my own... where am I supposed to go? I brought all this misfortune unto myself it seems because I have closeness issues, I cannot seem to keep a relationship alive for more than a year whether it be by choice or fate. A relationship with friends, family, or significant others, I cannot seem to keep anyone around. My friends do not like me nor do they approve of my lifestyle, so I cannot run to them when I am scared or alone. It's scary to realize you're on your own before you even step out of high school’s barriers and protection. College is not debatable for me. I am going; and am expected to go. Now, while I have a problem with authority, I do what I am told. And I have been told since birth that I am going to graduate from an excellent college. However, I don't know why I am going because I have no area of expertise or zeal. I've always been told that the future holds great things for me, but no one told me how to get there.

Leave me Messages on this Fridge

Currently Listening An Offer You Can't Refuse By A Change of Pace see related

this weekend was my birthday:

1. jessi came overrr <3
2. cooked // worked
3. the movie "flight plan"
4. went to WHITEE CASTLEEE (pix coming soon)
5. got lost
6. played pool & ping pong and lost
7. met new people
8. drove around all night looking for places that carry ping pong balls since jeff stepped on ours
9. the movie "waiting" is hiliarious
10. drove some more
11. watched a hiliarious bitch fight
12. was sick
13. turned 17 when tessa was the first person to wish me it. 12:01am bitches <3
14.brittany was second, then xtine, then ilya, then all those people who told me it on myspace or 2/3 days early who dont count
15.partied
16. drove some more
17. saw "shes the man" with britt, matt, and chris
18. had an amazing weekend with cool gifts =]

Currently Listening Things Aren't So Beautiful Now By A Thorn for Every Heart see related

so ever since december.... xanga pretty much died.

go get a myspace.

Currently Listening Back to Bedlam By James Blunt see related

 HELLLLL YEAHHHH. NO CRITICAL PAPER<3

BARNES & NOBLE LAST MONDAY:

 Poetry reading... gotta look smart

 Jenny BlowJob's best asset

 cafe time

 Scavenger Hunt we "worked on"

 uhmm...

 i think she's ready to come out now

 Alicia & Jenny = Ralph Fletcher

 Trying to hold it in as we Punk'd kinsey

 Its always a party with these two. Position of the Day.

 We all need some tips

DIRTY LITTLE SECRETS. from the book PostSecret:

"I can't think of a secret
Except...
I don't think I'm interesting enough to have a secret"

(like me)

"I want to be in love
But I'm afraid it won't solve all my problems
Like I want it to"

(like me)

"There are two kinds of secrets:
those we keep from others and those
we hide from ourselves."

(<3)

"I don't know if it will last
but for now, he makes me feel
like I can do anything I ever dreamed."

"I have finally spoken my secret
out loud
into this envelope
and sealed it forever."

(<3)

IVE GOT A FUCKING CAR && PERMIT! <3
 My baby

 no one pay attention to the funny-looking girl in the driver's seat.